Insignificant me

Amid the rustling chaos
Through the hustle of the crowd
A deadening silence rings my ears
Unbearable, intolerable.

I have come far, very far
Things changed, dreams changed
People changed, I changed
The nature of my change changed
Only my love for you remains unchanged

I have not destroyed myself
Maybe I have
What can one say about oneself
I judge myself in the light of my own morality
But maybe I am not fair
I forgive, time and time again, myself.
I ask myself, I am worth it.
Should I be forgiven?

But
In the cradle of this grand cosmos
Does that really matter?
Am I that significant
To speak with truth
No I am not
None of us are

Yet I have made myself think
That I am the center of attention
Oh how foolish I am.

I look up at the sky
At the inifinitude of stars
Looking down at me
Smiling staring maybe even laughing
At my foolish narcissicm

But they remind me again
Of my insignificance
In the infinity of this uknown universe
I do not matter
My insignificance, my foolishness, my hubris
Nothing matters.
Not to me anymore.

Only you matter to me
The light from your face dazzles my eyes
The moon finally has a rival.

I will not be here
I will be gone
But your eternal elegance will grace this place for eternity.